Never sleep in the afternoon

After so many years I have slept for soemtime this afternoon part of this needs to be atttributed to the curd rice I ate in the Annapoorna buffet. I woke up initially after my cousin called saying he ran out of gas on the freeway so tried to helped him out but he got it fixed himeself.

Dreams Unlimited:

I slept again when the worst things happened. I was day dreaming about the most unrelated things that happened in my life. First my physics teacher in my 10th grade appeared and I went to him and asked what are my marks then he said 25/25. I asked him when I didnt attend the practicals how did I make 25 he said you got it. Then I go back and meet my buddy pavan and asked him whats happening. Then he told you roll no was changed to 22(10th grade) from 29 (9th grade) (infact my roll no is still 29 I still remember it after I wake up). So he opened the marks register (part of it why he had the marks register is he is the guy who had nice handwriting so for anything including our physical details to be written in the diaries he used to do it).

Now I see roll no 22 had 8.5/25 I thought I was screwed up. Then I decided to go and tell my teacher that I went to India recently for a 1.5 months vacation and ask him to reconsider. This was one part of my dream.

The second part is I ws feeling so lazy and this laziness I was able to trace back to 3yrs before when I used to work in the gas station during my M.S. I used to wake up early in the morning at 5:00 AM and go to work at 6:00 and come back at 2:00 in the afternoon. After coming back I used to feel so tired. I was able to trace back the same tiredness I felt in my sleep to about 3yrs back when I worked in the gas station.

I am not sure how these thoughts have raced in to my mind. One way I was fearful of getting less marks in my practicals and other way I was not happy that I have slept the afternoon and trace back my self to what happened in the past.

Now:
I am writing this blog immediately after waking up from sleep and I have decided to wake up immediately after I came to my senses. What are these inner fears in me. Why am I worrying about something that happened (infact didnt happen as I made 23/25) around 12 yrs ago. What can I attribute these fears to. I am turning to be more positive and trying to be myself and I think suddenly everything is working for me but... One thing I have decided is never ever sleep in the afternoon and not eat too much food at the buffet especially curd rice :) I hate myself when I can't control myself over good food but thats my inner sense and I will control it. Can somebody explain what these inner fears are...

Rockford

Yesterday I saw the movie Rockford. I wanted to see the movie after I heard the songs. A nice heart felt movie where I could relate many of my childhood experiences.
I think people who went to a convent school can relate better than others as the movie is in a missionary school.

More later....